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Then in February Mr. Patriot, my husband become sick. Very sick. For a month he couldn't get out of bed. He couldn't even lift his head up. From the very first moment that I realized he was sick the Spirit said, "He is going to be sick for a very long time. But don't worry. Everything will be okay." So while many friends and family were sure that he was dying I knew he was okay. We did due diligence and went to several doctors. They were baffled. He finally became well enough to do basic activities. His energy levels fluctuate on a given day from 20-60% of his "previous life." He often goes into shock. I do not know why. He works 15 hours a week now as an average, but sometimes he doesn't work at all during the week . He works from home. He has limited energy and when its used up he's done. Some days he can do more than other days. Somedays I have to dress him. Our life together has required getting, "a new normal."
In the meantime I have learned how absolutely amazing my sweet husband is!!! He continues to make family and church/priesthood duties a priority. He is always smiling and happy. He is always making jokes. He still provides for us in amazing ways. The Lord has been very good to us and has blessed us financially and so this as not been a financial burden. I have come to see from this experience that he is dedicated to the Lord and trusts Him always.
In June I woke up one morning with the overwhelming impression that God wanted us to put our children back in public school. This was shocking! Never was that considered. Never was that talked about. There was never a chance of that happening. Unless of course God told us to do that. So after much prayer and fasting Mr. Patriot and I knew that this was the will of the Lord. The kids were brave. They took it well. They said we will follow God and we trust you. I knew then for sure that I had amazing kids. This rising generation is AWESOME!!!
The rest of the summer was spent talking about being in toxic environments, being taught false things, peer pressure, being true to yourself, etc. etc. I felt like a train was coming and my foot was stuck in the tracks and there wasn't anything to do but to take it head on knowing that I would die. Things will never be the same again.
The first day of school came and went yesterday and the kids took it like champs. They have amazing attitudes. They are positive. They are good kids and are determined to stand and "catch the wave." They know why they are there. They are there to show kindness, light, hope, character, and excellence. It will be long. It will be hard. But I choose faith over fear. God knows what He is doing.
I felt promised from the very beginning that God will protect my children. I felt assured that they would not be spiritually lost. When we received school blessings (in August now instead of January-EVERYTHING it seems is different in our life now!) I was told that, "nothing outside the walls of my home could destroy my children." So true. Great promise.
This summer I had told Mr. Determination that I felt like I was sacrificing my children. He promptly replied, "They aren't yours to sacrifice." True again. They are God's and I must follow His plan for them, sigh! Faith over fear.
So what am I doing with my life now? I went through mourning in a way this summer. My only hobby was home schooling. So I've had to learn some hard things about myself. God has different plans for me. Everyone in our house is creating a new normal. That's okay, God knows what He's doing. Faith over fear.
How is God calling you to exercise your faith over your fear?